I’m not sure I’ve expressed to you before what a privilege it is to be your daughter. I mean, I’m sure I’ve said it in passing or while my eyes were drooping as I headed off to bed. But I just want to make sure you really get a chance to hear it.
Because it is an absolute privilege to be your daughter.
I’m sorry for all the times I didn’t see it as a kid. For all the times I rolled my eyes or talked back to you during a temper tantrum. I’m sorry that I didn’t understand the “one soda a day and only after you drink your milk” rule was just there to help me. I’m sorry I gave you a hard time whenever you asked to take another picture to remember a moment, because now, those pictures are absolutely priceless to me. And, yes, I’m sorry that, to this day, I still argue with you about how many times a week you need to wash your hair.
I see now that every little moment was you working to create the best life possible for me and our family. And, I shouldn’t be surprised that you’re always trying to help make me better, because simply by existing, you make the world exponentially better. You surround every person in your life with love and light. Every room you walk into is instantly energized with positivity and magic.
You taught me how to love right. You taught me how to love myself first and then love others without reservation. You taught me how to give with the example of your endless generosity.
In elementary school, you taught me that no kid should ever be eating lunch alone and that sharing really is caring. In high school, you taught me perseverance and grit. That no one would give you your dreams, you have to fight for them, and it's always okay to ask for support from friends and family along the way. And now, into adult life, you’re teaching me that it's okay if every day doesn’t go perfectly because there is always tomorrow. And most importantly it’s absolutely okay if you still need your mommy.
In this season of life, I’ve needed you more than ever. But it's no longer just as the women who feeds me or buys me cute outfits from Gymboree or signs me up for every sport known to man. I need my mommy to tell me everything is going to be okay when the boy breaks my heart. I need my mommy to tell me that my dreams will come true if I keep fighting for them. I need my mommy to still shower me with love when I’m feeling lonely and remind me that I’m still an important part of this world, even when I’m feeling invisible.
I need my mommy when I see a funny meme and it reminds me of her. I need my mommy when I don’t know how to deposit cash at the bank or how to cook a chicken. I need my mommy as an instructor. I need my mommy as a confidant. And at this time of life, I need my mommy most as my oldest and best friend.
And I especially need my mommy to know and understand how radiant and special she is.
Mom, you are a leader in the fight for more positivity in the world. You are the first person to step up whenever someone else needs a small favor or a big commitment. You are focused and dedicated to making yourself and everyone you meet the best versions of themselves they can be. It’s undeniable how special you are.
Hearing from you is the best part of my day. Laughing with you has made my life brighter. And loving you, and being loved by you is the biggest blessing of my entire life.
Thank you for making me the person I am. I know as a human race, we were made in the image of God, and as an individual human, God definitely made me in the image of you. And that is a beautiful image I am endlessly proud to carry on.
So the next time someone reminds me how wonderful you are (and believe me it happens all the time), I will continue to let my pride burst from my mouth. I will spend all my days celebrating you, because you deserve nothing less. It truly is an absolute privilege to be your daughter, and call the wonderful woman everyone else likes to brag about my mommy.
All my love, forever and always,